Hello beautiful people, my name is Joanimo,

I am a male inhabitant of this planet.

Some people like me, some don’t.

Socity people say I am childish, real people say I am pure/real.

Some people think I am an introvert. Others don’t.

Some people think that I am shy, some think I am brave.

Many people think I am stubborn, yeah… maybe they are right.

I think that I am all of those things at the same time. Sometimes more, sometimes less.

Most of all, I want to be real. I think that’s what being human is all about.

My real and short Lifestory

I was born in some part of the world that is called “Germany”. I grew up in the black forest and people tried to get rid of my pureness like they do with almost every child. But I was able to keep some and I am happy for this.

Later I got kind of lost in this world. I was supposed to do things that are normal to do in society. But I never really wanted to. And nobody asked me.

I was shy. How sick can a society be that people get shy, because they think that they are not enough according to the expectations put on them. I entered the world as an innocent being and then I was “educated”.

“Grown-up”

Later I studied Industrial Engineering, which I never chose with all my heart. I started a job that I never really felt I wanted to do. Just because I wanted the money and the social acceptance as I was “normal” in this society now.

I did not do it for long.

After that I tried a dual course of studies of social work and also another office job.

And I got never happy with it. I never felt real. I just tried a way to fit in somehow in this society. Not because I really wanted it, it was because I felt like I had to. I feel so much pressure by this society.

Either you have to fit in or you end up homeless on the street. And if you are homeless, many people do not treat you as a human being anymore. I am really afraid of falling out of society and end on the street. Not because I think life without a home is the worst thing ever. It is because I am afraid of not being treated as a human being anymore.

Aliveness again

There was some sense of aliveness again in me when I quit my job and got self employed.

I have not found yet what I really want to do with my whole heart. And it feels much better for me to not be a slave of my boss.

It is also difficult to organise everything and motivate yourself all the time. But I would never go back to a job that I do not enjoy. Not for money. Not for social success either.

I tried out a lot of things that I can do being self employed to get some money and make my way in this society. Online Marketing, online shops, selling websites. I have never really enjoyed it much.

But what I enjoyed most in the end was designing T-shirts. I like to live out my creativity. Here on this website you find my best designs. Also on http://www.girlsofakind.com

I also enjoy writing. With written words I can express more than with my voice in a creative and more real way.

Facing fear

With the T-Shirts I do not earn enough for a living. So I work also as a freelancer in market research. I chose this because it brings me out of my comfort zone. I had to convince strangers on the street, in the supermarket, on a trainstation or at the door of their house to answer me some questions.

Also I enjoy giving massages. I imagine that I sense the other body quite well as I am highly sensitive person. People who were massaged by me told me that. However, I can not look into others, don’t know how they sense the other body when giving a massage.

I learned giving Tantramassage in some workshops and trainings. The fact that it is naked is nice, and it is about awareness and not about sex. I enjoy that I can give something really precious to the other person.

I created this website because I want to show the real me the way I want to be seen. Showing myself in a way that brings me money is not what I am into. When I tried to create websites with affiliate marketing, it was just in a way that people click there and this would earn me money.

I don´t want you to click anywhere. There is no advertising on this website. I just want to connect with you. Let’s prove that we are real HUMANS.

MY DREAMS

I want to travel around the world without money by hitchhiking.

Finding a partner who I can be wild with, serious, adventurous, deeply honest and just myself.

To do something for money that I really enjoy with my whole heart.

To live in an environment where I can thrive. Where I can just be myself and show my true colors.

I want to be loved. Without reason. Unconditionally.